#DARINGDecember
I have made
many promises to God since January 2015. Some I have kept and many I did not. Forgive me as
I forgive myself.
On every
given day, God was more faithful to me than was to Him. Thank you God. I committed
to go higher, deeper. I can be honest - I am still entangled in a love triangle between God and my husband. (Yes, I still call him my husband). This triangle directs and influences nearly everything I
do. A year has passed but my divorce isn’t final in my heart.
Even in my ignorance and desire to
hold on to what was, God granted me grace for things in 2015 that He knew
were not His best for me. All of my worst circumstances worked together for
good. I cried, I laughed and I cried
again, yet I believe it is not over. I continually give access to
someone who has no capacity for me.
I ask God to fix him, fix me, fix IT but I get in God’s way and expect
complete change. I want to believe that God didn’t allow us to have 18 years of marriage for
nothing. We have a story to tell but I
must allow God to finish writing the story otherwise we will remain an unpublished
script of in-completes, errors and mistakes.
Call me crazy, call me stupid and
then call it a miracle.
My moment, my DARE starts in December:
I
DARE to be truthful in ALL things.
I DARE
to shed the emotional and physical weight and keep it off.
I DARE
to stay on track with my goals.
I DARE
to let my heart heal wholly.
I DARE
to honor God first.
I DARE
to take control of my future and capitalize on my opportunities.
I DARE
to publish my book without excuse.
I DARE
to be an even better friend.
I DARE
to worship God in spirit and in truth.
I DARE
to ask for better and expect it in return.
Coni Hookfin is commissioned to draw the hearts of people to Christ and empower them. Her goal is to transform the world one person, one song, one book at a time. She is a mother of two.
Be daring, go get your dreams,
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